We were able to get a car for our oldest this past weekend, a Honda CRV, so that crisis is solved and I no longer have to share a car with my very busy senior in high school. Yay! This will indeed make my life a whole lot easier. Caroline has way too many appointments for me to be without a car.
Another bright spot for this weekend was that Caroline went to the girls lacrosse party on Friday at one of the girl's homes and had a great time. She didn't spend the night, but neither did the majority of the team, so all was good. We got the impression the girls behaved themselves and that Caroline didn't do anything to embarrass herself too much. Whew! I did catch her in a lie yesterday about where she was going on a walk out of our neighborhood and promptly picked her up in my car after a few minutes later. I had this overwhelming feeling she wasn't headed where she said she was going and decided to "check" on her as I went to the store. Sometimes, we just have to go with our gut, don't we? She wasn't doing anything bad when I found her, she just wasn't supposed to be there. Sigh. I just want the truth and nothing but the truth.
I went on a women's retreat with our church from Friday to Saturday. The time was very challenging as the topic was finding true rest for ourselves in the midst of our busyness. I must admit I get very little true rest and refreshment during the week. I guess I would consider Sunday morning to be refreshing and exhausting too. I am an introvert by nature and being around lots of people in a big room instantly drains me. I need alone time which I rarely get. But if I am intentional about it, maybe I could do this, planning out time on Sunday afternoons to just be by myself for an hour or two. Easier said than done. Also, why I spend all day cleaning up the kitchen on Sunday is a mystery. Enough! Paper plates on Sundays, because I need a break, folks!
I am struggling with intense anxiety this morning about our finances. I had nightmares all night. I know that nothing is truly perfectly secure in this life but I sure long for security! I want to know that we will never go through unemployment again, ever, but God doesn't guarantee that life will go as planned, does He? I have to trust that all will work out, but maybe not the way I had hoped or dreamed. I can cling to my plans, and be miserable, or I can cling to God and know peace.
About our Daughter
I am mother to four wonderful daughters, ages 17, 19, 21, and 23, and wife to the greatest husband on earth. God has given us a special child to raise one who was diagnosed with early-onset bipolar disorder at the age of seven, though she showed signs of it from the age of fifteen months. She also has ADHD, Sensory Integration Disorder (sensory seeking), Dyslexia, and Non-Verbal Learning Disorder-NOS, all typical comorbidities for a bipolar child. In spite of the trials, she enjoys lacrosse, running (finished her first marathon in October of 2014!), and reading and writing her own books. I will share with you the many joys and sorrows we have faced and will face in the future with the hope that you may find better understanding about this mental illness caused by both chemical and structural abnormalities in the brain. I desire that you will be encouraged by this blog if you are also dealing with a bipolar child. Thank you for reading and sharing in our journey.
How Did You Know She Was Bipolar So Young?
I wrote a long explanation of how we came to this bipolar diagnosis in a child so young under my post of March 19th of 2009. If your child or a child you know bears similarities, please seek out a good psychiatrist and don't wait for "things to get better." Often they will simply get worse, and the longer a child is unmedicated, the more damage their brain can accrue. Early diagnoses and treatment are key to providing these children with a chance at a successful life later as a teen and an adult.