That is how we are feeling right now after learning that my husband has a benign brain tumor called a vestibular schwannoma. He had been having hearing loss, ringing in his ear, a feeling of pressure behind his ear, and dizziness the last few months or so. He finally got an MRI after the military ENT noted the hearing loss last month. The MRI showed the rare growth, which now has to be dealt with by surgery or radiation. Because this health issue might take months more to resolve, the Navy might have to call him back to Active Duty. The Navy officially retired him last month without giving him a retirement physical, which was really stupid and probably illegal. He didn't know there was such a thing, nobody mentioned it to him, even over at medical where he was spending a lot of time getting his all of his medical stuff wrapped up prior to retirement. What this means is that his job search is in limbo because we don't know when they might recall him, it could be a few months off since his next ENT appointment to discuss treatment is a month away! So that means more time unemployed and unable to look for a job wholeheartedly. How dumb is that? So frustrating! So between no paycheck, a brain tumor, and our stupid contractor who messed up our kitchen addition a few years ago leading to rotting walls and floor, we are more than just a little bit stressed out right now.
But compared to a child who wants to die and is without hope, this is nothing. We have been there and the stress of feeling completely helpless to help your child is far worse. I will take this over a suicidal child any day.
About our Daughter
I am mother to four wonderful daughters, ages 17, 19, 21, and 23, and wife to the greatest husband on earth. God has given us a special child to raise one who was diagnosed with early-onset bipolar disorder at the age of seven, though she showed signs of it from the age of fifteen months. She also has ADHD, Sensory Integration Disorder (sensory seeking), Dyslexia, and Non-Verbal Learning Disorder-NOS, all typical comorbidities for a bipolar child. In spite of the trials, she enjoys lacrosse, running (finished her first marathon in October of 2014!), and reading and writing her own books. I will share with you the many joys and sorrows we have faced and will face in the future with the hope that you may find better understanding about this mental illness caused by both chemical and structural abnormalities in the brain. I desire that you will be encouraged by this blog if you are also dealing with a bipolar child. Thank you for reading and sharing in our journey.
How Did You Know She Was Bipolar So Young?
I wrote a long explanation of how we came to this bipolar diagnosis in a child so young under my post of March 19th of 2009. If your child or a child you know bears similarities, please seek out a good psychiatrist and don't wait for "things to get better." Often they will simply get worse, and the longer a child is unmedicated, the more damage their brain can accrue. Early diagnoses and treatment are key to providing these children with a chance at a successful life later as a teen and an adult.