Thursday, March 31, 2011
Please Donate by Midnight to the Matching Gift Challenge for JBRF!
The Juvenile Bipolar Research Foundation is in line to receive a matching $75,000 gift and today is the last day to donate! Donate at www.jbrf.bbnow.org . I did, and I hope you do too!
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
"Can I Date?"
The answer, succinctly, is no. Caroline, much to her credit, approached my husband and I with this serious question today. She likes a boy she met at the nearby high school while playing wall ball up there. We are so proud that she asked us to go out for coffee so she could share with us her feelings about this boy and ask permission to date him. Given her recent lack of truthfulness, this is a very good sign and we will be rewarding her for choosing to be so honest and for honoring us as her parents to come to us first.
But, this is not the time in her life when we feel she can handle the temptations of having a boyfriend. With her many struggles with self-control, adding that of romance to it all just isn't wise. She is disappointed and hopefully won't go behind our backs with this. I pray she will trust us that we know her well enough that our decision is truly in her best interest. One day a great guy will hopefully come along when she is older (much older ) and wiser and able to handle it.
But, this is not the time in her life when we feel she can handle the temptations of having a boyfriend. With her many struggles with self-control, adding that of romance to it all just isn't wise. She is disappointed and hopefully won't go behind our backs with this. I pray she will trust us that we know her well enough that our decision is truly in her best interest. One day a great guy will hopefully come along when she is older (much older ) and wiser and able to handle it.
Monday, March 28, 2011
A Car, A Party, and a Retreat
We were able to get a car for our oldest this past weekend, a Honda CRV, so that crisis is solved and I no longer have to share a car with my very busy senior in high school. Yay! This will indeed make my life a whole lot easier. Caroline has way too many appointments for me to be without a car.
Another bright spot for this weekend was that Caroline went to the girls lacrosse party on Friday at one of the girl's homes and had a great time. She didn't spend the night, but neither did the majority of the team, so all was good. We got the impression the girls behaved themselves and that Caroline didn't do anything to embarrass herself too much. Whew! I did catch her in a lie yesterday about where she was going on a walk out of our neighborhood and promptly picked her up in my car after a few minutes later. I had this overwhelming feeling she wasn't headed where she said she was going and decided to "check" on her as I went to the store. Sometimes, we just have to go with our gut, don't we? She wasn't doing anything bad when I found her, she just wasn't supposed to be there. Sigh. I just want the truth and nothing but the truth.
I went on a women's retreat with our church from Friday to Saturday. The time was very challenging as the topic was finding true rest for ourselves in the midst of our busyness. I must admit I get very little true rest and refreshment during the week. I guess I would consider Sunday morning to be refreshing and exhausting too. I am an introvert by nature and being around lots of people in a big room instantly drains me. I need alone time which I rarely get. But if I am intentional about it, maybe I could do this, planning out time on Sunday afternoons to just be by myself for an hour or two. Easier said than done. Also, why I spend all day cleaning up the kitchen on Sunday is a mystery. Enough! Paper plates on Sundays, because I need a break, folks!
I am struggling with intense anxiety this morning about our finances. I had nightmares all night. I know that nothing is truly perfectly secure in this life but I sure long for security! I want to know that we will never go through unemployment again, ever, but God doesn't guarantee that life will go as planned, does He? I have to trust that all will work out, but maybe not the way I had hoped or dreamed. I can cling to my plans, and be miserable, or I can cling to God and know peace.
Another bright spot for this weekend was that Caroline went to the girls lacrosse party on Friday at one of the girl's homes and had a great time. She didn't spend the night, but neither did the majority of the team, so all was good. We got the impression the girls behaved themselves and that Caroline didn't do anything to embarrass herself too much. Whew! I did catch her in a lie yesterday about where she was going on a walk out of our neighborhood and promptly picked her up in my car after a few minutes later. I had this overwhelming feeling she wasn't headed where she said she was going and decided to "check" on her as I went to the store. Sometimes, we just have to go with our gut, don't we? She wasn't doing anything bad when I found her, she just wasn't supposed to be there. Sigh. I just want the truth and nothing but the truth.
I went on a women's retreat with our church from Friday to Saturday. The time was very challenging as the topic was finding true rest for ourselves in the midst of our busyness. I must admit I get very little true rest and refreshment during the week. I guess I would consider Sunday morning to be refreshing and exhausting too. I am an introvert by nature and being around lots of people in a big room instantly drains me. I need alone time which I rarely get. But if I am intentional about it, maybe I could do this, planning out time on Sunday afternoons to just be by myself for an hour or two. Easier said than done. Also, why I spend all day cleaning up the kitchen on Sunday is a mystery. Enough! Paper plates on Sundays, because I need a break, folks!
I am struggling with intense anxiety this morning about our finances. I had nightmares all night. I know that nothing is truly perfectly secure in this life but I sure long for security! I want to know that we will never go through unemployment again, ever, but God doesn't guarantee that life will go as planned, does He? I have to trust that all will work out, but maybe not the way I had hoped or dreamed. I can cling to my plans, and be miserable, or I can cling to God and know peace.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
A Respite Saturday Courtesy of Our Church!
Our church, as part of its Access ministry to the disabled, is offering parents a respite Saturday on April 9th from 12:30 to 4:00 for special needs kids and their siblings at no cost. What a fabulous idea! Volunteers will be trained to care for these kids in a structured environment, with games, crafts, snacks and other activities. If you live in the Hampton Roads area and want more information, check out www.trinitynorfolk.com and click on Ministries, and then click on Access Ministries to register or for more info. Caroline is a little old for something like this now at 15, but I am hoping that many other parents can take advantage of this opportunity in our city! Thank you, Trinity Presbyterian Church and my dear friend Rebecca for heading this up! I hope many other churches can offer this kind of support ministry for parents with kids who are a little different.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Just the Facts Please!
I can never seem to tell if Caroline is lying or telling the truth these days. My biggest frustration with her right now is feeling like I can't trust her when she swears that I can. Then the evidence will sometimes show that she was telling the truth, or that she was outright lying, about a 50-50 chance right now. Argh! It isn't that our other kids don't ever lie, it is just that deception with Caroline seems to happen a lot and I know this is part of bipolar disorder, but when she is wanting more freedoms, being trustworthy is crucial. She just received an invitation to a sleep-over for the lacrosse team this Saturday, but we will likely not allow her to sleepover, only to stay late that evening. Missing sleep for her is a hugely bad idea, always resulting in manic behavior both that night and later. She will protest, but the risk of her embarrassing herself so early in the season is not one we relish right now, nor should she!
We have completed the private school application for this university model school for the fall, but I am very doubtful they will accept her, especially since they do ask about previous school dismissals (in the fourth grade) and also make you sign a waiver stating that your child has no learning disabilities, past or present IEPs, etc. Well, that kind of takes her out of the running right there, but my husband seems to be optimistic still. I say we come up with Plan B for the fall starting now. She has been so resistant to our direction all year that homeschooling her may just not work for her as much as we want it to. I am worried that without the rigors of a classroom she may not be able to handle college. Most homeschooled kids do great in college, but she is just such an under-achiever academically. She is super smart but doesn't put out the level of work that she could. Again, for other teachers, she will rise above, still not a straight A student or anything like that, but for us, she gives us the bare minimum required.
And then what to do about Jane and Mae. Jane wants to continue to be homeschooled, which is fine as she is my over-achiever, but Mae, who also wants to be homeschooled, not so much. I hate all of this indecision! Blah! Blah! And the weather isn't cooperating either, cold, rainy, and I am truly longing for warm sunshine right now to chase away the winter blues!
We are also trying to obtain a car for our oldest daughter, despite eight months of unemployment and dwindling savings. She needs a car, that all there is to it, and so my husband has been looking at used reliable cars. His three month job starts at the end of April so this will help our finances, but April 25th seems like a long way off. We find ourselves arguing about money a lot more than we ever have. The decline in housing prices isn't helping our outlook either, as a house in our neighborhood very similar to ours just went on the market for about $40,000 less than what we were hoping to sell ours for if we were to move this summer or fall. Bummer! We would still make a profit, but not a very big one now.
God is in control. But life is very, very challenging for us right now. I want to be on the other side of all of this, where my husband has a "permanent" job (nothing is permanent now anymore) and my daughter has her own car, our kitchen is fixed from the stupid water damage, we are finally able to save for the future again rather than chunking down our IRAs, and where we are living in a place we would feel comfortable sending our kids to the public schools instead of doing the private school dance every spring. So much I am waiting for, it is easy to be impatient and mad. "Let us run the race with endurance..." Hebrews 12:1.
We have completed the private school application for this university model school for the fall, but I am very doubtful they will accept her, especially since they do ask about previous school dismissals (in the fourth grade) and also make you sign a waiver stating that your child has no learning disabilities, past or present IEPs, etc. Well, that kind of takes her out of the running right there, but my husband seems to be optimistic still. I say we come up with Plan B for the fall starting now. She has been so resistant to our direction all year that homeschooling her may just not work for her as much as we want it to. I am worried that without the rigors of a classroom she may not be able to handle college. Most homeschooled kids do great in college, but she is just such an under-achiever academically. She is super smart but doesn't put out the level of work that she could. Again, for other teachers, she will rise above, still not a straight A student or anything like that, but for us, she gives us the bare minimum required.
And then what to do about Jane and Mae. Jane wants to continue to be homeschooled, which is fine as she is my over-achiever, but Mae, who also wants to be homeschooled, not so much. I hate all of this indecision! Blah! Blah! And the weather isn't cooperating either, cold, rainy, and I am truly longing for warm sunshine right now to chase away the winter blues!
We are also trying to obtain a car for our oldest daughter, despite eight months of unemployment and dwindling savings. She needs a car, that all there is to it, and so my husband has been looking at used reliable cars. His three month job starts at the end of April so this will help our finances, but April 25th seems like a long way off. We find ourselves arguing about money a lot more than we ever have. The decline in housing prices isn't helping our outlook either, as a house in our neighborhood very similar to ours just went on the market for about $40,000 less than what we were hoping to sell ours for if we were to move this summer or fall. Bummer! We would still make a profit, but not a very big one now.
God is in control. But life is very, very challenging for us right now. I want to be on the other side of all of this, where my husband has a "permanent" job (nothing is permanent now anymore) and my daughter has her own car, our kitchen is fixed from the stupid water damage, we are finally able to save for the future again rather than chunking down our IRAs, and where we are living in a place we would feel comfortable sending our kids to the public schools instead of doing the private school dance every spring. So much I am waiting for, it is easy to be impatient and mad. "Let us run the race with endurance..." Hebrews 12:1.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Truly Great and Free Math Tutorial Website!
Try Khan Academy for great video tutorials explaining everything from changing improper fractions into proper to calculus problems. We have started using this site with great results!
Mild Mania
We have decided, with the doc's permission of course, to decrease Caroline's Lamictal by 25mg in the morning because the mania we saw creeping in is actually still present. She just seems way to much "on the go" like she is on speed or something. The Lamictal acts not only as a mood stabilizer but an anti-depressant, so with the sunnier weather and longer days, she may not need as much now. I am so thankful that our doc trusts our instincts and usually goes with our suggestions! We know our daughter better than anyone else and so when we see early signs of depression or mania, we try to stay one step ahead as best as we can.
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