About our Daughter

I am mother to four wonderful daughters, ages 17, 19, 21, and 23, and wife to the greatest husband on earth. God has given us a special child to raise one who was diagnosed with early-onset bipolar disorder at the age of seven, though she showed signs of it from the age of fifteen months. She also has ADHD, Sensory Integration Disorder (sensory seeking), Dyslexia, and Non-Verbal Learning Disorder-NOS, all typical comorbidities for a bipolar child. In spite of the trials, she enjoys lacrosse, running (finished her first marathon in October of 2014!), and reading and writing her own books. I will share with you the many joys and sorrows we have faced and will face in the future with the hope that you may find better understanding about this mental illness caused by both chemical and structural abnormalities in the brain. I desire that you will be encouraged by this blog if you are also dealing with a bipolar child. Thank you for reading and sharing in our journey.

How Did You Know She Was Bipolar So Young?

I wrote a long explanation of how we came to this bipolar diagnosis in a child so young under my post of March 19th of 2009. If your child or a child you know bears similarities, please seek out a good psychiatrist and don't wait for "things to get better." Often they will simply get worse, and the longer a child is unmedicated, the more damage their brain can accrue. Early diagnoses and treatment are key to providing these children with a chance at a successful life later as a teen and an adult.
Never change, start or stop a medication without the approval of your child's physician!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

The Barometer

How Bill and I are feeling is always a good barometer of how well Caroline is doing. Right now, she is not doing well. We aren't either. I can feel the stress level growing like a heavy weight each day. When my chest gets tighter and tighter with each passing hour, and I have a headache from the time I get up in the morning, I know that Caroline's meds aren't right. When Bill begins to look down at the ground in great exasperation while Caroline is raging, I know things are not going in the right direction. I hope another increase in the anti-pyschotic will bring the mania under control. I am fearing hospitalization might await in the near future if the Seroquel has simply stopped working. It is amazing how fast things can change in a week or two. The temperature outside has been around 100 degrees, with a higher heat index from the humidity. This can't be helping. My temper is just under the surface right now. I pray for a cool rain to fall and refresh us, dampening these smoldering fires.

10 comments:

Anna said...

I am sorry to hear that you are having a hard time. What do you do when she rages? Do you have a plan of action? I can just feel the tension.

Megan said...

Well, exploding at her in not in the plan of action, but that I did. She was being so __itchy, so disrespectful and mouthy, so I yelled at her. Not great parenting, and didn't help. Bill took her out of the house for a drive to calm her down. I started writing...

Hartley said...

I am having similar issues here -- as you know.

Things were awful Monday, and I ended up walking my son in circles around the neighborhood -- all with me barefoot. I didn't care -- just grabbed his hand, screaming, yelling and raging, and out we went. It worked. For a few minutes.

I hope you are all doing better and soon.

:)
Hartley

E squared said...

Megan - I'm so sorry. I can feel your anxiety. Praying for a cool rain for you.

((hugs))

Erin

Amy said...

Megan-I am so sorry that things are not good right now, but with your faith and strength I know you will pull through like you always do. Hang in there and I will pray for you. When I want to explode at Kenzie I sometimes start quoting scripture even if it is phrases and not exactly right I still do it and God honors it-keeps me calm. I wish I remember to do it all of the time. Hope that helps. In His Love, Amy Oh, here is another idea for work-what about at one of the kid's schools like an aide or front desk person?

Debbie said...

Let's face it. Remaining cool, calm and collected when some sassy little kid is being bratty is all just VERY HARD!!! Our dd is only 9 and I can't even imagine what the teen years will be like.

ann said...

I am sorry that you are having a hard time. There are always adjustments to go through constantly in the summer. I do like the rages either it is very hard to help them get back under control and not loose it yourself. Hang in there a cold front is on its way.
Ann

Heather said...

Megan -- my son is acting the same - very ugly, at least one big rage every day -- 75% fine if engaged, not bored, tired, hungry. 25% of the time - bad. Very bad. Broken windows bad. That's alwasy been our barometer... how much stuff gets broken. I called Meridell. I printed out the paper work. I am not sure we're ready, yet. Is 25% horrible "ready" for Meridell?

亦妮 said...

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Megan said...

Heather--if your stress level has been super high for many weeks, with no med increases helping significantly, and you feel like he is out of control more than he has ever been, and that all the in patient counseling isn't making a difference, then please don't hesitate about Residential Treatment, at Meridell. The experience as so worth it for our dd, and for us. They were able to control her rages like no one had been able to. You are not going to damage your son by sending him. It sounds like major intervention is needed. Tell me how it goes!