My mother in law passed away last week and the funeral was Monday. She was a wonderful lady who had such a gift of hospitality. My husband will miss her dearly as will we. Alzheimer's took her memory, but not her cheerful personality.
Caroline has an uphill climb ahead of her academically until June and thus so do I since I am her teacher. I wish I could just have the hours from 8 to 3 to give her my undivided attention. Life kind of gets in the way of that with two other kids to manage as well. Jane kind of homeschools herself with a little help from me, but Caroline needs a lot more direction, and Mae also needs constant reminders to stay on task. Distractions are the worst, a phone call, a doctor's appointment. I try not to answer the phone during the school day and I am trying to make all doctor appointments after three in the afternoon, but so often with the specialists, they tell you when they can see you. But I want to make this work, I really do. I ordered some more curriculum supplies and I am ready for this second semester. I hope she is too!
No job yet. I am trying not to panic, but at night, in the middle of the night, sometimes I jerk awake. Anxiety makes a poor bedfellow. I find myself repeating certain verses to myself over and over again, like a mantra of sorts, focusing my attention on God and away from the situation.
I have the most amazing husband. I want the world to know how amazing he is. I want to see him relaxed again, laughing, smiling. Soon.
7 comments:
Hi Megan,
I am sorry for your loss. Try to take some special healing time for yourself.
Hugs to you!
Hi
My name is Jenna and i came across your site. U daughter an amazing, precious gift, and a special earthly angel. U are an amazing, courageous, determined, positive and strong fighter. U are an inspiration, brave warrior, and a smilen champ. U are a princess hero, a beautiful trooper and a tough cookie. U are full of life, spunk, joy, smiles, happiness, laugh, love, and hugs. U will be in my in my thoughts and prayers. I am sending hugs and smiles ur way. http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/champ291 I love it when people sign my guestbook. I have a rare life threatening disease, developmental delays and other diagnosis. I also have bi polar, and depression. I know you daughter doesent have a life threatening disease like I do, but she still battles everyday with her diagnosis, and there for she is a fighter.
Smilen Champ, I am so honored that you would write on my blog and share some of your story. I will go to your Caring Bridge website and write to you there as will my daughter. She would love to be a pen pal! You are so brave. Love, Megan
So sorry for your loss. It is very hard to lose someone so close to you. Take time to heal yourself and your family.
I am sorry for your family's loss. I know things can get really hard with life, led alone when you have special qualities in your family. I hope you can take my well wishes to heart as you are lucky to have your family whole. I am a single mother with two sons with special needs & a daughter. My oldest son is Bi-Polar, Autistic, CAPD, AHDH, etc. Unfortunately for me my children cannot all be raised in my home any more. So, please, hug everyone & love them. I wish my family could be as together as yours is. Sonya MacLeod
SMacLeod, welcome to my blog and thank you for commenting. This is a hard journey for all of us and I welcome friends! I am sorry that you can't have all your kids with you right now, but I do understand how sometimes, when things get so bad, that actions have to be taken to protect everyone and to lead to greater healing. Blessing on you!
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