Another Thought

I just wanted to share that one of the reasons we try to do these kind of things with our girls, especially Caroline, is that we would build memories and form tighter bonds with them.  I feel like the mommy/daughter trips that I have taken with all but the youngest have made them more trusting of our relationship in general.  But another, kind of morbid thought I have, is that we might not have Caroline for as long as we want to.  The suicide rate of bipolar persons is 15%.  Because she has been diagnosed as pretty severely bipolar, I often think that because I don't know the future, I want to bless her now in every way, not to spoil her, but so that I (we) will not have any regrets later that we didn't do the things we wanted to with her, and with all of our kids.  That's why we are going to Disneyland and Seaworld this spring break.  To build memories, hopefully the good kind, so our kids will remember that life wasn't all chaos and stress.  I am a little nervous about the trip, because of the potential for crisis everyday with Caroline, but we just need to give it our best effort and refuse to let bipolar disorder dictate what we can do together as a family.