You've Got to Be Kidding!!

That is how we are feeling right now after learning that my husband has a benign brain tumor called a vestibular schwannoma.  He had been having hearing loss, ringing in his ear,  a feeling of pressure behind his ear,  and dizziness the last few months or so.  He finally got an MRI after the military ENT noted the hearing loss last month.  The MRI showed the rare growth, which now has to be dealt with by surgery or radiation.  Because this health issue might take months more to resolve, the Navy might have to call him back to Active Duty.  The Navy officially retired him last month without giving him a retirement physical, which was really stupid and probably illegal.  He didn't know there was such a thing, nobody mentioned it to him, even over at medical where he was spending a lot of time getting his all of his medical stuff wrapped up prior to retirement.   What this means is that his job search is in limbo because we don't know when they might recall him, it could be a few months off since his next ENT appointment to discuss treatment is a month away!  So that means more time unemployed and unable to look for a job wholeheartedly.  How dumb is that?  So frustrating!  So between no paycheck, a brain tumor, and our stupid contractor who messed up our kitchen addition a few years ago leading to rotting walls and floor, we are more than just a little bit stressed out right now.

But compared to a child who wants to die and is without hope, this is nothing.  We have been there and the stress of feeling completely helpless to help your child is far worse.  I will take this over a suicidal child any day.