So this is how it feels at the rock bottom of despair
When the house I built comes crashing down
And this is how it feels when I know the man that I say I am
Is not the man that I am when no one's around
This is how it feels to come alive again
And start fighting back to gain control
And this is how it feels to let freedom in
And break these chains that enslave my soul
CHORUS:
I refuse to be locked up in here like a prison cell
Where all I ever get is a meal and four walls
I used to be just fine in here but not anymore
Gonna break through these steel bars
So tell me how it feels when the tables start to turn
And you find yourself at the losing end
Tell me how it feels, you're not welcome here
'Cause I'm tired of pain and I'm tired of sin
CHORUS
I won't let you win
I have no doubt
I don't want you in
So get out, get out
CHORUS
I refuse to be locked in here like a prison cell
Where all I ever get is a meal and four walls
I used to be just fine in here but not anymore
Gonna break through these steel bars...
1 comment:
Oh Megan!
You are so NOT ALONE in this pit of despair! I get that way a lot even though my lot in life is different than yours. There are so many hopes, dreams, desires that haven't come to be in my life either. Embarrassments. Disappointments. And what looks like God has turned His face. Everyone's life looks far more put together than mine...and I suspect my family is one of the ones you are thinking of when you talk in your first post from yesterday as being all together. We are SO not!
I would love to get the chance to just let it all hang out with you. Away from the family. Time to pray together. Cry. Laugh. Maybe even gain perspective. Someplace where we aren't in public.
I look forward to lunch with you tomorrow, but you don't need to be "up" for me. We are sisters in Christ - I am here to come alongside you and help carry your burdens. I can't solve them, but I can be with you. Showing you how you aren't alone even when the devil wants you to think you are. Even when my situation is different from yours. We are on the same road learning just how much we need Jesus and can't really do anything by ourselves.
I love you dear friend. You and your family.
K@
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