A blog for anyone who needs to know they are not alone in raising a bipolar child.
Monday, November 1, 2010
"Get Behind Me, Anxiety!"
I say this many times a day now, whenever I feel fear and panic setting in over my husband's job situation. Right now I am stretched in every direction by homeschooling, working part-time and trying to stay on top of homework for the regular schoolers and their many after school activities. That would have been enough. I see my husband appears to be on the edge of panic too. He is REALLY stressed out. He has always been such a rock for me but now I am definitely being the rock for him, which is what marriage is about (for better or worse, remember?) Not that he has lost faith or hope completely, but he is very tired right now. He filed for unemployment and I am astounded by how little it amounts to. It doesn't come close to paying our mortgage. I don't know how people without other emergency lifelines can make it through a job loss. I am most frightened about using up our lifelines before he lands a job. I know God has a plan, He is just slow to reveal to us!
My husband was not able to work for over 3 years due to bipolar. Now he is working again but it's impossible to predict whether he'll be able to stay employed or not. So although our situations are a little different, I wanted to tell you that the panic is normal, and it is a motivator (for me, anyhow).
ReplyDeleteI am surprised at the ways I have grown through this. I have learned so much, and become so empowered. And a little bit more prepared in case it happens again...and you will, too.
You'll be amazed at the surprises that are in store for you--and how strong you can be in a crisis. You will get through this and come out on the other end just fine. It might take a while, of course...