Monday, September 7, 2009

To Sleep, Perchance to Sleep Some More

One thing I have definitely noticed is that unlike how I slept all summer, which was great, so much so that I dropped two of the sleep meds I was taking, I am now back to needing three sleep meds and having lots of nightmares. I wake up and I can tell I have been grinding my teeth. Subconsciously, I must be more stressed out than I feel. When Caroline was away, we all felt so relaxed, and so sleep came easily. Now, just her presence brings on anxiety. She is better yes, but she will always be bipolar, and always have struggles greater than the average kid.

Right now she wants texting back, which we had taken away last fall after some unfortunate texting that got her dismissed from the homeschool coop she was in. She wants to feel like a normal teen who does normal teen things. I wish that for her too, but the but the boundaries will always be tighter for her. She said that she always feels like she is in Elizabeth's shadow, which I am sure must be very hard. For that reason I am especially glad that she will not be in high school at the same time as her older sister. Holding her back in the fourth grade was a good idea just for that reason. Caroline will need her own space.
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  1. Corrie HoweSeptember 21, 2009 at 12:44 PM

    We have the same conversations in our own home. How come they aren't treated like the other sibling. It is hard for them to understand that we treat them individually. My oldest is "typical" and seven years older than our middle child with Asperger's Syndrome. One would think he'd understand why he and his brother are treated different, but he doesn't. The hope that I hang onto is that when I finally became a parent, I understood why my parents treated my siblings and I differently. :-)

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