I Secretly Wish She Could Stay

Yes, I wish Caroline could just stay there, only because she is thriving there and she hasn't thrived in years.  She is as happy and functional as she has ever been.   She misses us terribly I know.  I don't miss her yet, but I know I will.  We don't know that she will do as well when she comes home.  At the RTC she has a very tightly  structured day that our family couldn't reproduce--life happens here.  I aim for order but nothing ever is perfect.  And her school situation there is ideal: small class size with teachers who understand bipolar kids (and truly care for them) and can give her plenty of one-on-one attention and who can challenge her right where she is at in every subject.  There are no schools that I know of like that here.  Even the special school here that claims to do that didn't really meet her educational needs.   So it's hard to want to bring her back when you know that life here will be so much more challenging.  We are still unsure of what school she should go to in September, and I am quite anxious about it.  The ED classes (emotionally-disturbed) can be full of kids who are close to going to juvenile detention, and she doesn't fit that at all.  I pray for wisdom.