Caroline Leaves Tomorrow

Today wasn't a very eventful day.  In fact, I think I was avoiding eventfulness today by being gone most of the afternoon, getting a pedicure, or helping Mae with her giant ancestry project due on Monday.  Honestly, I felt extremely stressed out from the time I woke up and still do feel that crushing anxiety I sometimes struggle with.  I am sure it is about Caroline leaving for months.  We had a nice dinner for her tonight, chicken and dumplings, and the girls gave her cards (even Elizabeth, at my prompting) and we gave her a journal to write her thoughts in.  I also took her to pick out a new purity ring, since she lost hers at an amusement park last Saturday.  It is silver, with two hearts intertwined, diamond chips to make it sparkle.  I hope they let her wear it.  She really wants to have it on.  She feels insecure somehow without it. 

She had a hard time today, very agitated, worried about whether she had packed everything. Watching her try to pack and "organize" is painful.  Her executive function deficits really show when she needs to think and plan.  It is as if her brain goes haywire and starts smoking if she is asked to look at a situation and figure out what needs to happen in which order.  She is pitiful in that way.  I hope the RTC will help her in this regard.  Well, they have to get up at 5:00 tomorrow so I'd better get off to bed too.