Missing My Oldest

Our oldest daughter, sixteen year old Elizabeth, is in Scotland right now helping to run a camp for teens with Young Life. She has been gone over a week and I am really missing her. She doesn't have cell phone service or easy access to the internet so we are not hearing from her much. We don't miss the way she instigates conflict with her younger sisters, but she is my buddy in many ways. Not my peer (as I tell her all the time), but definitely one of my best friends. I have felt really lonely without her constant running conversation with anyone who will listen about the antics of her myriad of friends. She is quite entertaining. Never a dull moment as far as she is concerned. I don't miss being the all day taxi service I have become for her many activities, school and otherwise. But I miss her. A lot. I will be a mess when she goes to college next year. It is just too quiet around here. Yes, I wanted quiet, but just for a few days. Then my extroverted side comes out and I want lots of people around me all of the time. I guess I am never satisfied!